I can't sleep. I've been lying in bed and thinking about how uncreative I have been. I have all these people all around me telling me to paint and be creative and it just frustrates me.

I'm creatively dry. I'm trying hard to rekindle a desire to create. I feel like if I don't hurry up and do it soon, I'll lose out on so many works of art. But I can't force it. I tried to force it last fall when I was in Senior Studio...and I created some very mediocre paintings that disappoint me when I look at them.

But I am being stirred up a little bit. Lately there have been creative people around me that inspire me to try. I stepped outside tonight and breathed the warm October air. I just stood there and thought.

Maybe I could create again.